Five

Five days until Hope’s Intensive. So far, I have a pee saturated rug behind her door (a new behavior) and cut up all of GB’s waitress pads (a Christmas gift and one of her current fixations). The Dad flew our 17 year old granddaughter in from Michigan to be with GB while are  busy with the intensive. GB loves the water and the hotel has a pool. As Hope escalates, I have been pouring attention into GB. Thankfully, GB is still fragile, but holding her own. 


I do not need any comments telling me how unfair adopting Hope  was to GB. I look at GB and that knowledge is imprinted on my brain everyday.

9 thoughts on “Five

  1. How about one that reminds that that at the time it all made sense? Your track record working with kids with this kind of needs was very good and GB was doing better. If I remember correctly you made some real progress for a while. I don't see how you could have predicted this level of escalation. If our crystal balls were as accurate as our hindsight we would all be rich. So stop beating yourself up.

  2. You can do this! You can do this! You ARE doing this! Just hang in there another FIVE days. You are doing the right thing for both of these girls. God has a bigger plan than we can see, and you are being faithful. Praying for you all.

  3. I agree with jwg… you did what you thought was right at the time. And I for one LOVE the idea of GB and her 17 year old (aunt? cousin? either way…) getting to spend a whole week in a hotel with a pool! I think that sounds amazing for her. Yes, this is all very hard for GB, but I believe she knows you are doing everything you can for her and I have faith she will be ok. And hopefully the intensive will give us all the same kind of hope for Hope! Hang in there momma, you are amazing!

  4. I hope Hope heals at least a little during the intensive therapy. I also agree with jgw, you could not predict Hope would be so challenging. Hugs for you 🙂

  5. My friend, believe that there is a reason and purpose beyond our understanding. I have clung to that when nothing made sense and heartbreak and anger were dominating our lives. I don't know what the ending is but both girls are blessed to have you. (((hugs)))

  6. Absolutely agreeing with everyone else. I believe that GB seeing how hard you are battling to provide better for her is therapeutic in the midst of the chaos. Love you, my friend. Praying every day.

  7. I too sometimes wonder if I've done the right thing for my children by adopting special needs kids, and all I can say is that I know this was where God led us for a reason. Please be kind to yourself, your friends who get it would never criticize you. If it helps, my biokids seem to be stronger, more empathetic, better kids than they might otherwise have been, and I'm a better advocate for them too.

    Mary

  8. i just wanted to say what you did for hope is amazing . if you hadnt taken the risks for her and believed she could overcome this then who else would have don that for her. you are an amazing woman

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