This morning I woke up to a bright sky, warm air and the first thought in my head was “I don’t wanna get up”. Hope screamed for an hour last night. She had the afternoon I expected, the teacher conference went as expected, and the rest of the day was as expected. It all sucked. Bedtime caught me by surprise. I asked Hope three times to put her pajamas on and three times she crossed her arms and said no. Something in me rebelled at asking a fourth time, so I put her into bed in her panties. She screamed and screamed and screamed. After an hour of screaming the Dad caught her at a lull and went in the girls room and sat in the rocking chair. She fell asleep. At that point, I had a wicked head ache. I took some medicine and went to bed.
I woke with the same headache I went to bed with. Hope had her usually lousy morning and I put the girls on the bus. The refrain in the back of my mind is now “How long before she is back?” What a waste of the Hope-less time I have! I am going to do a load of laundry and see if I can find a pair of big girl panties to wash… I seem to have run out of them this morning.